Baby Boy

Well, I guess I should start by apologizing for how late this post is. The Christmas/New years season were pretty busy, but that’s still no excuse considering it is now mid January. But anyway, this song is titled Baby Boy because it’s about Jesus. But I think that’s pretty obvious haha.

The song starts out with Joseph’s point of view. When I decided to write a christmas song I wanted to think about things from a different point of view. One of the first lyrics is, “Can I be a father to the man that’s meant to bring peace on earth and hope to everyone?” As I was thinking about what Joseph was thinking after an angel came to him and basically told him, “Yo Joseph, don’t freak out or anything, but Mary is pregnant through the holy spirit and you’re going to have a son that will save the world. And oh yeah, name him Jesus.” I mean really, how intimidating would it be to be a father to the man that was one day suppose to be the father of all fathers? I can only imagine the turmoil in his head at that time.

Next, we get into the chorus. I wrote the chorus almost as a prayer. “The baby boy was born, oh devil won’t you flee from the man he’s meant to be. The baby boy was born, oh father won’t you bring peace to humanity.” Jesus literally had the weight of the world on his shoulders, so this prayer to God isn’t just from Joseph. It’s from anyone that knew the significance of Jesus’s birth. The devil wanted more than anything for Jesus to fail. I feel that so often we forget the devil’s ability to deceive. He loves to torment us in any way that he possibly can. To think then of how much he must have tempted Jesus is just humbling.

The next verse is a conversation between Jesus’s people (us) and Jesus. “Pierce our hearts and let your people know, their cleanliness does nothing for the soul. So put away those fears you hide behind, oh you act as though my love is hard to find.” Before Jesus came, it was almost as religion was more of a habit than a way of life. So this is the people asking, “Give us something more. Let us know that this is about more than sacrifices and offerings. We want to know YOU.” And then I imagined what Jesus’s response would be. “Stop fearing God, stop fearing me, and stop acting like you have to work for my love.” Now, there is a healthy fear for God. But the fear I’m referring to is not of the healthy sort. It is the fear that makes you hide, not the fear that makes you respect.

After the verse there’s a continuation of Jesus’s response and then our cry to God saying, “Don’t let me go, Don’t let me fall apart.” I think this part is pretty self-explanatory so I won’t go into detail. I’ll post the full lyrics below along with some links to the song itself.

I’m just a man and he’s the rising
To put away the darkness we couldn’t overcome
Can I be a father to the man that’s meant to bring
Peace on earth and hope to everyone x2

And the baby boy was born, oh devil won’t you flee from the man he’s meant to be
And the baby boy was born, oh father won’t you bring peace to humanity

Pierce our hearts and let your people know, their cleanliness does nothing for the soul
So put away those fears you hide behind, you act as though my love is hard to find

And the baby boy was born, oh devil won’t you flee from the man he’s meant to be
And the baby boy was born, oh father won’t you bring peace to humanity x2

There i came to save the world, you still praise the idols and ignore just who I am and why I’ve come to be the banner of his love
Don’t let me go, don’t let me fall you cry and I’m still standing here with open arms and tired eyes I see the trail of every tear

Don’t let me go, don’t let me fall apart x4

No I won’t fall, I won’t fall apart
And if I do, Lord you won’t let me hit the ground
I won’t fall, I won’t fall apart
With every tear, I’ll find strength within my heart
With every tear, your heart breaks and makes me new

You can download the song here



I wrote this song about my brother. I think the song explains a lot on its own, but I’ll try to go into depth a little more.  My brother is probably one of the most caring people I know. He’s two years older than me and although we have our differences, I’ll always know that he will be there for me when I need him.

I think everyone goes through a time in their life where things just get really hard. Where doubting seems to become so much easier than believing because of the things we go through. It has been one thing after another for my brother. A broken heart, followed by some bad decisions, followed by losing someone, followed by just feeling stuck. It’s as if the world is against him right now. In this time of trial, sometimes we try to fill that emptiness will meaningless crap. Whether that be drinking, drugs, or broken relationships. It all leads to the same thing in my opinion, a bottomless hole in our hearts. Sometimes we give into the devil’s temptations, but God always gives us a way out of it. No matter how far away from him we feel. The chorus of this song simply says, “come home.” And that’s what I feel God is telling my brother. “Come home, son.” The devil has no grip other than the grip we choose to give him. If we give the devil an inch, he will steal a mile. When we live in sin, we allow the devil to come in and tell us we are no good. He places doubt in our minds, and corrupts our hearts. But this is the thing, all God wants is for us to fall on our knees and tell him “I’m home!” To confess we have been living in sin, and then to accept his grace and his mercy.

After finishing this song I just felt like there was something missing. Something wasn’t quite right. Every time I went to add a new part to it I just simply couldn’t. So I’ve come to a conclusion. The songs not finished because my brothers story isn’t quite done. Some day I will add to this song and truly finish it. And I can tell you now, it will be a happy ending. You know why? Because God always wins.

Here is the link to the song.


Tired eyes and a broken heart
Little boy I knew he’s all fallen apart
There you stand with weakened knees
But you’re still holding on to what you believe

“Son come home
Come home”

With your face to the floor
You say “oh God, I’m worn”
With your face to the floor
You say “oh God, I am worn”

And God says
“my son, come through these doors
Son come home
Come home”

If you would like to download any of my past songs, click here to do so!

The Seed

The first song in this project is titled “The Seed.” This song has a lot of meaning behind it, and you can definitely tell in the lyrics. The song is basically a conversation between God and I. I ask if my longings for him are sincere, and if they aren’t, is that why I can’t feel his presence like I once did? I also question if we were born to just be witless beings that believe what they are told to, or if we are suppose to understand exactly what it is we believe.

I close the song with lyrics that basically just mean I’m left in awe of God. I realize that God doesn’t have to care about me, but he does. He wouldn’t have to provide the answers as to why he is God, but he has. God’s grace for us has no gates. He does not require something from me in order for him to accept me. This, more than anything, is what I find so unreal about God. I can ask all those questions and doubt him so often, but he still loves me. If somebody doubted me and questioned me, I would probably give them some attitude and tell them they aren’t worth my time. But that’s not God.

I named this song “The Seed” for many reason. First off, it’s the beginning of this entire project that I have started. I hope that many good things come out of this. More than anything I just want to grow personally, and I hope that other people can grow with me. Second, a question is always a seed in a sense. When we question something, we embark on an adventure of finding the answers. I hope to always ask the questions, and whether I not I find the answer isn’t the point. The adventure is what I’m after. One of my favorite artists “Sleeping at Last,” has a song lyric that says “life without revision will silence our souls.” I believe that with all of my heart.

Question everything; for maybe the adventure is actually the answer we seek.

I pray to you, but do I believe the words I say
I sing to you, but does the melody come from love or pain
Is it doubt my lord, that keeps you from the depths of my heart
Is it fear my love, that tames the passion deep within this soul

Cuz all you need is a seed and you promised our faith will grow
Have my roots dried out has the water lost its flow
Or maybe it's a choice I've made to give up and try this all on my own
Beneath the rubble of a boy is the heart of a man who won't give up hope(x2)

Is it your love that holds my fragile world in place
Are the answers I seek the very thing that makes me weak
Were we born to find the answers or created just to believe
If I could only see my purpose when the darkness finds its way into me

Is it the darkness that blinds me or the hope that I won't show
Am I ashamed of the God that's kept my heart whole
Its not the beat of a heart that makes you God of all
Your grace has no gates but my heart it seems to climb then fall(x2)